14th November 2006,
5.00pm Tuesday. Waiting for Dzung and Ming Ha. They came to follow up with Dr. Gan and will follow me back. They will be going back Vietnam tomorrow, very fast. Work has been busy, not physically busy- more of the emotional and mental stress- with a lot complaints going around. I was not well, keep on nose bleed. It shouln't be the weather, probably the mental stress. Mum was sick for the past 2 weeks- cough and vomiting. She hardly eat, afraid that she will get vomitted each time food goes in her GI. I feel very burdened especially yesteday- with stress in work, then mum's condition add on to my worries. Even with this little little things I get stresses so easily. If anything major ever happen to mum, I really don't know what to do, what to expect. Well, I shouldn't have been so negative.
Sharing some of my concerns with Benji. He tries his best to encourage me, sharing all his experiences and the Words and promises of God. I can see so much gift in him, a good preacher and teacher...potential Pastor material. The sharing is very much powerful- and it is all true- very biblical. After so much of sharings, suddenly Benji paused, and said " I know that you know all these. It's all in You!" I guess he must have given up counselling me, or maybe I don't actually need counselling. yeah, I just need someone to be there and listen, and say "It's ok Shirley, it's okay". Or a person to just sit by my side, and give a pat on my shoulder, saying "Don't worry, I'm here for you". But still, I appreciate Benji so much. I'm always encouraged by his testimony, his openess in sharings of his past and always putting God first in everything. Always pointing me to Christ- the right way. Even it's not easy way, but always the right way, always the truth. He only speak what is true- the truth. Thank you, Benji!
